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Tomorrow Is Two Years Post Op

Tomorrow will be my two years post op from top surgery. I did not die from it which could be hard to believe since I haven’t updated this in two years. Life has still happened in the meantime but I just got away from coming on here. I never backed away from the transness of it all but top surgery did make me more at ease within myself and bought me some time to decide on the future. I do not wake up every day with top dysphoria. Getting out of the house is not a chore of wrestling into a binder. I just put on some clothes and can be out of the house in 5 minutes if needed.

When I get the time, I plan to add posts of significant events from the past two years. I kept up with taking pictures of my chest for several months post op and wrote my thoughts down at the time. A lot has happened for the good in the past two years and there have been some hangups. I plan to start blogging again and hopefully will keep it going this time. There are some big decisions coming in my future and I hope the decisions that I do make will be the right ones.


Recovery Day 7 Drain Day!

Got the drains out. When she pulled them out it was like the burning of 2000 suns. I think my chest looks pretty good. There’s some puffiness on the left pec that I hope goes down. I really need to work out now, my lower half is way bigger than my upper half. I am concerned if he left me with bigger nipples? The middle bump not the areola. The right nipple looks bigger in the middle than the left one. Y/N?

Edit: Forgot to add that I can already feel sensation in the nipples as of day 6. Just sitting here they tingle and when water went over them in the shower I felt it on both. Though the right has far more sensation right now.

1 week post op.

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Recovery Day 6

Felt some tingling in my nipples and all over the chest. Drains really really started to be painful. Mostly the stitch in my armpit was irritating me. Back was mostly better but I kept a heating pad on it most of the day and night.

Recovery Day 4 & 5

The power lift chair I got really killed my back. It’s hurting worse than my chest or the drains. The itching mostly went away. I occasionally feel tingles on my chest. It’s probably the incision healing. Day 4 I pooped so no problems downstairs, though every time I pee it’s like a waterfall. Wiping hasn’t really been an issue. Neither is reaching once in awhile. The worst part is having to wait 3 more days for drain removal.

Recovery Day 3

Still very itchy. Taking a baby wipe and going over all the places not covered in foam on my chest seems to help me feel better. It got all the blue stuff off of me without having to scrub. Swollen by the drains and along my sides. Already less than 30cc a day. I want these drains out now! Felt real sick to the point of almost throwing up. I think it is the mixture of meds and not pooping that caused it. The swelling in my left chest has gone back down. I called the surgeon and hopefully they will call me back so I can get these drains out Friday instead of Monday.

Recovery Day 2

Itching like you wouldn’t believe. It is driving me crazy. I think I’m backed up with about 10cc output today on each side. The left side appears to be swollen. I called the surgeon and he said to loosen the vest and not move my arms much and to call if it gets worse. It’s like my whole side is bruised and painful to the touch. Not sure how I will survive the week. Took some benedryl and colace. Some farts coming out but no bowel movement yet. Eating is normal. Still sleeping a lot and pretty tired. Put some bactarician(sp) on my drain holes. They look swollen too.

Recovery Day 1

I survived my surgery. They didn’t use enough pain stuff when I woke up and hurt real bad on the hour ride home plus probably another hour for my oxycodeine to take effect. I’m having trouble peeing it seems on the first day. Like I will start just fine but once there is a pause in my stream it takes some effort to start up again to empty the bladder. So every four hours I take the oxy then every two hours between the oxy I’m taking some ibuprofen. Appetite is fine. I ate three bowls of mrs. grasses soup. That was after the pills took effect. I’ve been in and out of sleep since I got home. My chair only goes back to a certain position that causes me to snore when I don’t snore normally. Kitty has been a champ and kept my lap warm on top of the four blankets I have. Oh I was kind of bitchy when I woke up and a bit nauseous but I was in pain so yeah. But I was well enough for the 5 minutes it took in the pharmacy to pick out a roll of those giant sweet tarts for later plus a few butterscotch discs. Butterscotch didn’t really help with nausea that much, had better luck with a candy cane. Emptied the drains 3 times I think so far. This left side hurt worse to start but it was bigger by a bit so it will be interesting to see how it all looks in a week.